The End of the Road

I just sent this update to my family, friends and supporters. I may talk more about this later, but for now here is my latest news:

It has been almost one year since I left for my three month trip to North Africa. It is hard to believe how fast time has gone by and how much I have learned in this process. Last night I looked through my pictures of camel rides, trips to the souk, new friends...memories that I will never forget. There is one picture of me sitting inside a cave with Anna and Jonathan overlooking the ocean. I remember that moment well. Not being an adventurous person, I had been nervous about climbing down the small, narrow hole to the opening at the side of the cliff. However, I had made a promise to myself the night before (perfect timing) that I would always at least try what I was scared to do. Finally making it to the side of the cliff, I sat down to watch the ocean waves, firmly grasping the rocks around me! As I looked out over the roaring waters, I was filled with emotions. For the first time that I can remember, I was genuinely thankful for the gift of singleness. I knew then that it was a gift and not a curse. I was overwhelmed with the truth of God’s greatness and sovereignty. I believed more than ever that He is worth living and dying for. Needless to say, the whole experience changed my life. God used this program to stretch me to lengths I never thought possible.
It is hard to put into words what has happened over these last few months. Torn between sending and going, struggling to raise support to mobilize, not sure of my place with the ministry...the pieces were just not coming together. After much prayer I have come to the decision that it is time to stop raising support to go on staff with Cafe 1040. My elders and wise friends have affirmed what I am feeling. While I am very disappointed, I am hopeful about the future. I do not know what lies ahead, but I do know that “all my days were ordained when as yet there was not one of them” (Psalm 139: 16). I am resting in this truth and the truth that His plans cannot be thwarted. Thank you so much for all of your prayers and support. I cannot tell you how much it has meant to me.

I am still very supportive of the overseas program and plan on recruiting students even though I am not a "Student Recruiter". This has been a difficult desicion but I believe it was the right one for this time. We shall see what the future holds!!!